Sexual Tendencies

"Would you eventually leave me for a man?" Chloe asked after an amazing romp in bed. 

"Um, no," I said, trying to go in for another kiss.

"But you like both men and women. Don't you?" she asked and pinned my arms down gently behind my head.

"I've dated both," I answered. "That doesn't mean I want to be with both."

"So you don't want to be with a guy?" Chloe asked and drew her lips closer to my mouth

"No, I want to be with you," I pushed myself free of her grasp and kissed her.

"I dunno," she said and grabbed a pink dildo off of the dresser. "I think you like men."

One of the things that bothered Chloe was that I didn't really feel comfortable defining my sexuality. I had, I guess-- up until more recently been dating both men and women-- defined myself as bisexual. This bothered her as it had also bothered Elizabeth.  The main difference was that, at least now, I wasn't so sure I would ever really want to be with a guy again. But there is still some judgement from the lesbian community when it comes to bisexual women. This is based upon the fear of getting your heart broken, stomped on and being humiliated for dating a straight girl, which we all know leads down the road of heartbreak. But at this point I really have no desire to or see myself switching teams later down the road. So does that make me a lesbian then? I felt like someone had just thrown my deck of cards in the air.

So I turned to the people who knew me inside / out. I asked Frankie and Cindy. "What the hell, am I? Bisexual, lesbian, and does it matter?

"Only to you," Frankie said.

"And your mother and girlfriend," Cindy said. "Cause your mom is gonna freak when she finds out and you will have to eventually tell her.  And your girlfriend is going to freak if you leave her for a guy."

"Thanks, Cin. You're always a big heap of bluntness," I replied. "And yes...I do have to tell my mom."

"I'm surprised this is what you wanted to talk about," Cindy said.

"I thought you would want to talk about how hot Jenny Owen Youngs was at the Rockwood the other night," Frankie replied.

"Frankie, you're straight. She was looking hot though, and she sounded awesome" I said laughing.

"Oh, shit. I am straight. Oh, does it matter?" Frankie asked sarcastically.

"Naaaahhhh," Cindy and I said in unison. - Ruby.