Happy New Year?

Well my New Year didn't go quite as planned.

I had been planning to tell Elizabeth about what happened with Xena at the Christmas party although I knew she wouldn't like it, but I with our schedules it was impossible to meet. We still talked on the phone every night, but I wanted to tell her in person. I still thought she should know and perhaps that maybe she might finally trust me.

So I met up with Cindy for a pep talk and dance at Henrietta Hudson's. No sooner did we enter then we bumped into Elizabeth's obnoxious friend Sarah. She was kind of like a lesbian version of Janice from friends. "Well this is kind of awkward. So how are you doing? I guess you haven't seen that much of Lizzy, heh?" she hinted after introductions.

"Heh? Why do you ask?" I responded.

"Well, I just met up with her and her ex-girlfriend last night. I think it's kind of crappy that she did that to you."

"What?Are you for real?" I said totally shocked.

"Huh? I mean I'm totally on your side and this. I think its shitty that she just went back to Anna like that. You must have been so hurt. But she said you were ok with it because you were bi-- and more into guys or something like that."

"Um. I'm not sure what you're saying. Elizabeth and I never broke up, but I guess it's over if what you're saying is true, " I said hurt and humiliated that Elizabeth didn't even have the decency to break up with me and shocked because just an hour ago she was telling me on the phone that she loved me. I felt duped.

"Oh shit. Oh shit. I thought well she did it already. Well it's ok if I mean you're into guys anyway right? Maybe not?"

"Um. So I'm looking for a man in a lesbian club?" I asked and raised an eyebrow.

"Er. Well. I've got to go," Sara said as she shoved past Cindy and ran out the door.

"What the fu..?" I started to say, but Cindy grabbed me and started dancing.

"Look at me. This is not a bad thing," she said.

"Uh. Yeah it is. My girlfriend is cheating on me?" I said.

"This...is an opportunity to figure out what you need and it might not be a girlfriend," Cindy continued. " You no longer have a girlfriend. Fuck her. Elizabeth is stupid and she wouldn't let you breathe."

"Well that's true," agreed and spun around to the Single Ladies Anthem.

"Tonight you get your revenge. There are plenty of pretty ladies here to play with and honestly you could have your pick," Cindy said smiling.

"I can't believe that Sarah. What the hell was she saying Like I have to define my sexual identity for her or for anyone but myself. Like who I sleep with defines me completely? I was Elizabeth's girlfriend, but it's ok for Elizabeth to break my heart because I might be straight or bi or a lesbian? What the hell is that?" I asked.

"Stupidity," Cindy answered and twirled me around to the music. "This is my remedy to shit like this. Tonight you are going to fuck someone's brains out. It will make you feel better. Always helps me."

"Cindy, for real I don't think that's what I need. I need to really think..."

"What? So you can dwell over shit and feel sorry for yourself. No way," Cindy said and turned me around so I was grinding up against some girl who had been grinding up against me.

The 'grinder', who was suprisingly very pretty turned around and said, "Do you know I haven't gotten one phone number tonight?"

"Really? Why not?" I asked.

"Well I'm kind of picky. But some numbers are worth waiting for," she said and danced closer in kind of a cheesy and sexy way. "And I've been waiting for yours, " she said in my ear suggestively

I almost burst out laughing simply because it was a pick up line and I wasn't used to getting them. I looked at Cindy and said, "You know, there's no time like the present, right?" - Ruby